Monday, 3 August 2026

A Stream of Conciousness

 

A good few years ago now, I deleted Facebook. When musky bought out Twitter, I deleted that too. 
I've never used Snapchat or TikTok or any other so-called 'social' media, except Instagram. 
Instagram, when it started, was right up my street. I'm pretty sure I got it not long after its original launch, and though over the years I've deleted my account and remade another at least twice, I always kept going back because photos are my thing. That was until recently, when something clicked in my head, and I had to leave there too. 

I've not posted photos of people, including myself, online for years and stopped sharing my pets too. A few months ago I began going through my 'activity' and deleting old likes, comments and re-shares. Then a month or two ago I deleted all of my photos and videos that had been posted before 2026. (Who is even looking at a back catalogue of images from a stranger?!) 
Finally, on the first of August, I deleted everything and put up one post saying I was leaving and why. However, there wasn't enough space to write the words I really wanted, and after having more comments on a post than I've had on anything for years, I wanted to elaborate in a blog post. 

This might be difficult to put into words coherently, so it will be more of a stream of consciousness that I hope you'll humour. 


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Firstly, social media is a stupid term because the human race has never been less social than we are now in the digital age. There is nothing social about it, and recently, with the increase in rage bait, hatred, meta glasses, posting your every move and thought online, it has become a cesspool of the worst of humanity. Don't get me wrong, we get to see the best of it too, and I'm well aware of the good people doing good things; however, much of it feels fake and forced and money chasing. When is doing a good deed no longer a good thing? When you are filming it specifically to post online, be it for the attention and praise or for monetary gain. 
It's a great tool to get information out there and spread the word of causes that you believe in, but there is no regulation, so how do you know what information is correct versus what is fear-mongering or hate-inciting? That is becoming more and more difficult to decipher. I can't believe I've gotten this far without mentioning the dreaded two-letter terror that is taking over our world. I fear everything it is causing, from loss of jobs and an increase in deep fakes, to the data centres and political, societal and safety implications. So much so, in fact, that I don't even want to write those two letters and draw robotic eyes to my last safe space on the internet. 

It's a scary, depressing and heartbreaking time we're in, full of war, the rise of right and our beautiful planet's sixth mass extinction. Yes, we need to be aware of what is going on in the world and proactive to stand up for those who need us, but it's a difficult balance before you fall headfirst down a well of despair and have to claw your way back out. That's exactly what has happened to me, and as someone, like everyone, who has my own overwhelming life issues, it's all become too much. There has to be a point where we realise the online world is making us ill, and we have to know when to say enough is enough.

I live in a household that cares deeply about our natural world and prioritises it in many aspects of our lives. We do things that many people don't think about or even care about, but I think and care, and it matters to me. It seems everyone has the mentality that while our governments and those silly little men in power don't care and aren't doing anything to save our planet, we shouldn't worry about it either. However, in the same breath, those sceptics will always say that we insignificant lot 'make a difference' too. So which is it? I believe that every single choice we make, no matter how small, causes an effect. I was told 'an Instagram post is insignificant ', but I disagree. Not only does every post contribute to the need for data storage and therefore data centres, but it also risks my photos being taken and used by others or stolen to train those two letters. I have had my photos taken and reposted by others, and for you that may not seem like a big deal, but as someone who puts so much of my limited time and energy into my work, it is a big deal for me. We are losing the rights to our own work. My photos are nothing compared to the authors and artists and people whose livelihood is being damaged in similar ways, though.
While talking of that, I must also mention the fact that it now seems a requirement for any independent business to play the social media game to be seen or considered. As a species we've become so removed not only from the natural world that sustains us, but the communities and relationships that have formed the basis of humanity for millennia. You'd rather save a pound or two by buying from billionaires than support a fellow person working hard to make a living. You'd rather hoard masses of disposable tat than treasure a small amount of quality items. You'd rather save 10 minutes by going straight to the big name imprinted on your brain, than go out of your way to seek out the indie gems.
 
I choose to do everything in my power to limit my impact on Mother Nature. My acts may be less than a drop in the ocean to you, but to me it is something I can control, and if we all had that mindset, those 'less than drops' could merge to make a ripple. 
People seem to think that by me saying I choose to act in certain ways (be it veganism, limiting my digital footprint or anything else in-between) means that I am judging them for not feeling or acting the same way, which simply isn't the case. For goodness sake, I have a tattoo across my chest that says 'Believe in What You Want ', and although yes, it is taken from a Jimmy Eat World song, it doesn't make the sentiment any less true. I personally believe that I should live my life in a way that aligns with my morals. So I am.

There is more to say, there always is, but I'm aware our species has limited attention spans these days, and I doubt you've even read this far. 
In conclusion, I just want to reiterate that I have made such a tiny choice that affects no one else but at least makes me feel like I have some control over an uncontrollable situation. I took up space for no reason. I had a minute following where my photos amassed a maximum of 15 likes. My voice was an echo in an empty tunnel. No matter what I have shared, no matter how much I've pleaded, I have had no positive impact on helping my planet, and I never will. 
I know when to stop.